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Crumbling ApartMy mask crumbling apart
Slowly showing my true face
Torn and bruised
Neglected and in pain

Looking around me
Too tired to fight anymore
Just too tired to keep my mask
As I feel it break slowly

Ashamed of myself
Ashamed of what I've become
Trying to survive eachday
Trying to stay sane in this world

Darkness is my friend here
Silence is my partner
Tears are falling down
Blood dripping of my wrists

She is real..Voices, Personalities.
Somebody else, is inside this head.
I'm not crazy, right?
I can't let them get the best of me...

Her name..
It has a name?
It has a gender?
It's just my mind cracking.

It shouldn't exist
Right..?

She comforts me, whispering words in my mind.
She has come to exist,
Only for the sake of my sanity..

She wishes she could hold me,
But she only exists in my mind.

They tell me, that she is wrong.
I should overcome her,
that she is only repressed memories. Taking form

She will speak for me one day..
When the weight becomes too much..

A smile that can hide the pain insideDays that never end
of a smile so bright
that can hide the pain deep inside
The tears that are hidden
inside the eyes that shine everyday

A smile so huge
to escape the pain deep inside
a laughter so bright
that can take away the pain inside

No end to this sadness
and trying to act Normal
No end to the pain
but be willing to
put a huge smile on

As days gone by
all I can think of is death
a way to end it
a way to hide my true self

Crying alone at night
wanting the help
but fearing people wont understand
why I feel this way

Hiding myself
beneath this mask I wear everyday
A smile so big
that can hide the frown she has

N

I Will Still Love YouI know you're not here
But that's okay.
Because I know you're still watching me
Every single day.
I do miss your laugh
And even your cry.
I wasn't expecting
The need to say goodbye.
Things happen for a reason
This I know is true.
But no matter where you are
I will always love you.

My Eternal CurseMy Eternal Curse:

Since the time I was awakened,
From the dawn I lived and breathed.
I have always walked alone,
For I carry a dark disease.

No matter where I go,
No matter where I'm born.
Always it will reveal itself,
Always I am torn.

The moon will shine from cloudless heavens,
And soon the change will take it's place.
My fangs will grow and fur will sprout,
It is my deep and dark disgrace...

Silverback, they called me,
Bane of men and beast alike.
Knights and templar, each and all,
Sought to have me on a pike.

I've killed so many countless men,
They are faceless in my waking dreams.
Bones shall litter the depths of my la

Have You Ever Felt

Have you ever felt alone, in a room full of people?
Have you ever felt dead, when you 're alive?
Have you ever laughed, but cried your heart out on the inside?
Have you ever felt free, But still trapped?
Have you ever felt the need, the big need to
Fake a smile, and act like it's okay?
I have, and I will do
But staying true to yourself, knowing who you are
That is the most important thing, a human can do

The Death/The Hope of PoetryBeauty is held
In the eyes and ears
Of the beholder

And the death of poetry
Rides the lips
Of the scholar
The red pen
In the school master's hand
It is written in textbooks
And handed down with disdain
By the critiques
That bring only pain
Who wash their hands
In the tears
Of their peers
Then sit, sip coffee
And write books on their triumphs

It lives in the minds
Of those beaten down
Thrice too many times
For their "misuse" of meter
Or rhyme constructed
Not by the heart
But by the book
Thrives in those
That say look
Look at me
Do you see this degree?
It's from Bowdoin in Brunswick
And it makes me
Better tha

Search PartyMost people say that
I probably won't find
the one. There are
just too many
people, too many
problems.

If you aren't the
one,
that's fine,
I don't blame you.
But please,
just don't be
one of them.

Not that SimplePlease,
Oh sure-and-stubborn teacher,
stop telling me
her death deserves no mourning.
Stop saying
It was a choice, yes or no
and it's all her fault.
It isn't that simple.
Don't look me in the eyes--
My eyes, that have seen my own blood
more times than I can count; eyes
that have closed tight as a knife was held
to my throat by my own hand;
eyes that read the labels on those bottles
wondering how many pills
would stop my lungs--
don't look me in the eyes and tell me
it's simply yes or no.

No one would miss me...It's the same thing that drives me to suicide nearly every night,
It's the same thing that gives my enemies such evil delight.
It's the same thing that gives my lover such a fright,
It's the same evil thought that I am thinking tonight.

Even you reader, would you miss me if I left?
If I just stopped writing poetry, left this account bereft?
Would anyone, anywhere, miss me if I left?
If I left for good, because with a blade I am deft.

No one would miss me...
No reason to, no one loves me.
No reason to, no one even likes me.
It's just a fact that no one would miss me.

that gay kid-

she started a girl with pink dresses,
dirty white sandals and rustled hair she'd pull down
before she even left the door.

she hates the lace, the way it pulls on her shoulders
and droops a tulip over her hips and down her legs.

but she braves through it, because mommy says so.
she's mommy's girl, a girl who did what she said instead
or whatever she wanted to. she's mommy's girl,
a girl who wore dresses and attended parties with
the same dolly she cried for when she got it for her birthday.

-

it's medieval day- the biggest day of preschool,
like a prom for little whores and cute business men.

paige, do you want to be a knight

You hated meYou laughed when I fell
You watched me kill myself
You hated me silently
You loved me secretly

I slapped you when you laughed
I cried when you watched me die
I knew you were disgusted of me
I loved you loudly

When you cried
I cried
When you lied
I lied

When you died
I said horrible things to your mother
You pretended to love me
So I pretended to love you

Tonight when I sleep
You will come to me in my dreams
You will say you love me
But the truth is you have always hated me

Nobody GirlIf I died tonight,
No one would really care,
I doubt that anyone would notice,
If I wasn't there.

There wouldn't be anyone looking,
For where my crumpled body lay,
Nobody would give a damn,
If they didn't see me today.

If I take this blade,
Go a little too deep,
Nobody would notice,
If I didn't wake from my sleep.

Not a single soul,
Will miss me if I go,
Not a single tear will fall,
This I truly know.

It's all because I'm a nobody girl,
I mean nothing to people I meet,
I'm the face nobody remembers,
To my best friend a stranger in the street.

Love SonnetAfter all these years my love hasn't changed,
You're still the one I hold dear there's no doubt.
I promise we will never be estranged,
When we're old and frail our love won't wear out.

Love doesn't ask questions, it tells no lies.
Our united passion is like a bird,
When it unfolds its lustrous wings and flies,
It shall always be with you undeterred.

But if for some reason you don't agree,
Then I shall do my best to understand.
No matter what your decisions will be,
I will eternally be close at hand.

I'll never stop loving you, that you know
While it's plain one day, I must let you go.

StopYour voice
Echoes
Through my ears.
It makes me want to
Scream and say
Stop.
My ears bleed
At the sound of your voice.
My head pounds,
The noise
Unbearable.
I just want to be alone
With my own thoughts,
My own voice,
I don't want to listen anymore.
Just, stop.

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Alone

by ~ExctonIc, Feb 16, 2012, 4:31:41 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

She sits alone, over there in the dark corner.
The walls painted black, the floor covered in blood.
Tears running down her cheek, her hair covers the deep wounds.
She aims the knife against her throat; "the one deeply wounded
shall not continue his journey in pain, but rather live forever in paradise".